more cr26/talks spoilers

bmouse
replied to your post “processing some more cr shit[[MOR] i’m one of those having a real…”

Yeah all the condescending ‘well that’s just how the game works, you noobs~~’ posts are really tone-deaf and not helpful. As if being somehow ‘objective’ makes you a better kind of fan or a better kind of human. People seem really really interested in policing others’ reactions to Molly’s death which makes me feel uncomfortable in this fandom for the first time since I entered it

yeah, this is exactly it! ah, i identify 100% with this. i feel really bummed out, as if being totally unruffled by ep26 means they’re… what, more mature? as if not being upset is the more right way to be? or that’s the vibe that comes off the “don’t be THAT upset” posts that i’m getting. i get wanting to defend the cast, but it feels like a good chunk of this is coming at our expense. 

i’m feeling extra frustration bc largely, where i look for the fandom, i’ve found it great. everyone mostly wants to shield matt/ashly/etc from attack, and i’m completely behind that, but there’s so much of this conversation that – yeah, i feel like my reaction to this is being policed. i want to feel my feelings and not have my emotions brushed aside with ‘stop overreacting to a game’. it’s not unreasonable to be upset about it, at all.

okay i dont actually know your ships though like, i wouldnt know WHAT to send, you feel me. like. would u write kla/nce?? thats it thats literally all i can think of thats not acariosi

bruhhhhh like legit i don’t even know anymore

sure i like that ship but also when i write fandom stuff it all comes out gen, actually

so rn i’m not feeling k/ance tbh but uhhhh hm. what am i feeling beyond my rp ships…..

………..

i seriously have to think about it omg

Writers’ ask meme: 4 and 8!

How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share one of them?

Oh, gosh… I’ve got a good few always on the run – but actively nurturing? That’s… only a few… It’s bad, but I flitter to newer and funner ideas, towards the shiny new ones. That said, the one that isn’t an rp that I keep trying to get down is a Voltron horror rated M for Mature by the esrb ;P – the gang ends up on a derelict space station and obviously, things go terribly wrong. 

Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

Favourite dialogue? Oh, man. I need to go searching through my old writing, give me a bit…

There’s nothing that like, I’m over the moon excited about but here’s something that I still like, looking back on:

“Well?” I asked. “Say something.”

Marco made an aborted motion to touch my shoulder. “I’m… I don’t know what to say. I’m sorry?”

I threw my head back. “Wow. Okay.”

His hand went back to his neck. “I get it.” He looked at me and I had the courage to look back. “I really think I do.”

I believed him. “…Yeah.”

Marco started picking at a loose thread on a cushion. “Do you…” He trailed off, but I didn’t have the guts to guess and fill in what he wanted to ask. “Do you…” he started again, “…think you did the right thing?”

I squeezed my eyes shut. “God, I don’t know, Marco. I don’t know.” I rubbed my forehead. “No. Obviously not.”

I don’t know why I like it – it just seems solid. I like the feeling I was able to put in there about both the words and the physicality of it shows what mood they’re in. When I can get both things working, I just feel like the dialogue works better.

50 and 51 for the writer’s asks!

50. Weirdest story idea you’ve ever had.

this is a weird one, because weird is in the eye of the beholder, and sometimes weird = random crackfic, but in terms of how far out there… this is something i’ll never write, but all worlds living in a post-apocalypse – the 100, fallout, ff13, etc. become connected… and magically regenerate their worlds. a bit silly, but one my mind keeps drifting back to…

51. Describe the aesthetic of your story _______ in 5 sentences or words.

this isn’t really fanfic, but the stuff i’ve been working on the most lately… high political regency romance fantasy.