Tag: critical role

processing some more cr shit

i’m one of those having a real tough time with it, and tbh, the tone of what’s going on, i just can’t deal. i didn’t realize i was going to react to molly’s death so strongly, but i did, and here i am

and tbh i’ve found 99% of the response from cr fandom the most alienating. 

matt and the rest of the cast? i love em. i 100% love that they love and trust each other and they’re on a nakama journey together and they’re processing things the way they need to, and they’re saying things the way they need to to process. and it’s working for them and it’s just not working for me.

this is evidently something they want to explore, or are at least willing to explore. their group deals with character death in a way that i personally really don’t like, but it’s their choice, and i’m just going to have to square with that, and if that means i take some episodes off, that’s what it is. the cr folks are going to do their story their way, but everything they’ve said has acknowledged that not everybody watching is going to be on the ride with them. to me, this is fine. i’m really angry and hurt, but this is something i can grieve and deal with. i find they’ve been real compassionate about it.

what i’m finding less easy to deal with is the rest of the fandom, and – i don’t recall ever being so bothered by others in the fandom – but so much of the defense of the cr cast has used arguments like “this is just how the game works” and “get over it” and “people who are that upset probably have never played dnd before” and i love matt and the crew but i am so fucking exhausted and alienated by responses like these. i just don’t care. those defenses do absolutely nothing for me; i am not comforted, or reassured, and i am certainly not led towards acceptance or getting over it. if the goal was to reassure upset people that you are equally upset, mission failed.

i don’t want to hear how this is a game of chance, i don’t want to hear how incorrect it is to be very upset about it. that’s so unhelpful, it doesn’t engage with feelings at all, and i feel real condescended to. 

i haven’t even touched on anything specific to molly and his character, but i’m finding it even harder to process. just don’t look at the tags, i guess. shrug emoji

clockheartedcrocodile:

I was so excited to pick my favorite character from Critical Role 2: Electric Boogaloo but I can’t do it, I just can’t fucking do it,

because you’ve got this fuckin’ Sad Cat Dad who probably scrobbled up from a storm drain somewhere with nothing but his cat and his wits and a trench coat full of black market paperbacks, walking around with big-ass bags under his eyes, clearly in need of a lifetime of sleep and cuddles, and HE’S my favorite,

but then you’ve got this tiny goblin Gavroche with a mask that she scavenged off a horror-movie set, and these great big yellow eyes that look right into your heart, but she’d probably offer you tea and crumpets with one hand while stealing your wallet with the other, and SHE’S my favorite,

but then you’ve got this weird, gross monk wandering around in a permanent hangover, spilling money all over the floor and picking fights with homophobes in back alleys, and SHE’S my favorite,

but then you’ve got this purple-ass carnival huckster Conman King named after a fucking sea shanty, just twirling through life like a kaleidoscope of all the ostentatious goth-punk teen fantasies I’ve ever had, and HE’S my favorite,

but then you’ve got this ten-foot-tall cybergoth dreadnaught of a deviantart OC who throws lesbians over her shoulder for fun and spends 90% of her time lurking in the woods while avoiding her responsibilities as a hype man, and SHE’S my favorite,

but then you’ve got this blue tiefling in a pretty dress who knows everything about everything and her whole face is happy and appealing and mischievous and she is everything good and kind and pleasant in the world, and SHE’S my favorite,

but then you’ve got this fuckin’ salt-and-pepper half-orc with the texblade hexblade and the voice smooth like Southern Comfort, 18 Charisma 7 Wisdom motherfucker who doesn’t know he’s the handsomest soft jock that ever tried to get into Magic School, and HE’S my favorite…

This new campaign brought it hard and fast and I simply was not ready for it. I did not come prepared.