windsroad:

the state of mollymauk, it seems:

beau is still trying to bring molly back, and they have possible access to SOME clerics MAYBE that MIGHT be able to cast raise dead

but matt and taliesin are still trying to find a place for taliesin to come in with his new character

so?

what if they come in with his new character?

but molly got rezed right after?

what the fuck would happen?

peace out, other tal character?

maybe matt is waiting because he wants to see what happens in their rez attempt first?

still holding out hope that taliesin rolled a cleric and is going to make the ultimate Power Move and resurrect himself

can you say the word fuck for me?

more cr26/talks spoilers

bmouse
replied to your post “processing some more cr shit[[MOR] i’m one of those having a real…”

Yeah all the condescending ‘well that’s just how the game works, you noobs~~’ posts are really tone-deaf and not helpful. As if being somehow ‘objective’ makes you a better kind of fan or a better kind of human. People seem really really interested in policing others’ reactions to Molly’s death which makes me feel uncomfortable in this fandom for the first time since I entered it

yeah, this is exactly it! ah, i identify 100% with this. i feel really bummed out, as if being totally unruffled by ep26 means they’re… what, more mature? as if not being upset is the more right way to be? or that’s the vibe that comes off the “don’t be THAT upset” posts that i’m getting. i get wanting to defend the cast, but it feels like a good chunk of this is coming at our expense.

i’m feeling extra frustration bc largely, where i look for the fandom, i’ve found it great. everyone mostly wants to shield matt/ashly/etc from attack, and i’m completely behind that, but there’s so much of this conversation that – yeah, i feel like my reaction to this is being policed. i want to feel my feelings and not have my emotions brushed aside with ‘stop overreacting to a game’. it’s not unreasonable to be upset about it, at all.

processing some more cr shit

i’m one of those having a real tough time with it, and tbh, the tone of what’s going on, i just can’t deal. i didn’t realize i was going to react to molly’s death so strongly, but i did, and here i am

and tbh i’ve found 99% of the response from cr fandom the most alienating.

matt and the rest of the cast? i love em. i 100% love that they love and trust each other and they’re on a nakama journey together and they’re processing things the way they need to, and they’re saying things the way they need to to process. and it’s working for them and it’s just not working for me.

this is evidently something they want to explore, or are at least willing to explore. their group deals with character death in a way that i personally really don’t like, but it’s their choice, and i’m just going to have to square with that, and if that means i take some episodes off, that’s what it is. the cr folks are going to do their story their way, but everything they’ve said has acknowledged that not everybody watching is going to be on the ride with them. to me, this is fine. i’m really angry and hurt, but this is something i can grieve and deal with. i find they’ve been real compassionate about it.

what i’m finding less easy to deal with is the rest of the fandom, and – i don’t recall ever being so bothered by others in the fandom – but so much of the defense of the cr cast has used arguments like “this is just how the game works” and “get over it” and “people who are that upset probably have never played dnd before” and i love matt and the crew but i am so fucking exhausted and alienated by responses like these. i just don’t care. those defenses do absolutely nothing for me; i am not comforted, or reassured, and i am certainly not led towards acceptance or getting over it. if the goal was to reassure upset people that you are equally upset, mission failed.

i don’t want to hear how this is a game of chance, i don’t want to hear how incorrect it is to be very upset about it. that’s so unhelpful, it doesn’t engage with feelings at all, and i feel real condescended to.

i haven’t even touched on anything specific to molly and his character, but i’m finding it even harder to process. just don’t look at the tags, i guess. shrug emoji

Wish I knew how to make a cut on Tumblr mobile but I guess it’s not to be, so spoiler warning

But I am legit pretty sick of “this is how dnd works” responses to the distress of a character dying and does not make people feel better. My reaction is always resentment; it comes off as really patronizing and does not lessen the grief one iota. I’m not gonna respond in hostility but boy. Do I fucking hate those posts sometimes.