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absolute lithops effect – the mountain goats

“after one long season of waiting,
after one long season of wanting,
i am breaking open.
my insides are pink and raw.
and it hurts me when i move my jaw,
but i am taking tiny steps forward.
and i… i feel sure that my wounds will heal.
and i, i will bloom here in my room.
with a little water.
and a little bit of sunlight.
and a little bit of tender mercy,
tender
mercy.”

this song got me through so many scary days. sad, sick, spooky days when i felt like all my raw wounds were gonna bleed forever. i would float on my back in the swimming pool and hum this to myself. it softened the rough edges.